Hahaha Bored so I wrote this

"Sweet"

They say that dew drops drip from your lips like the sun light that pours from your eyes.
They say that your laughter echoes like ages passed on to the future in your heart and in mine.
They told me you're pretty, a goddess devine, hidden like the treasures no man could ever find.
They told me you're modest, not a word passes by, about how great you are when you don't even try.
I told them I love you, I told them I care, those secrets I dwelled with I openly shared.
I told you my deepest darkest of truths, only to find it was not I meant for you.
You kept all those moments of treachery from me, adultery of emotions played so diligently.
You told me once that I made you smile, when it was others who warmed your heart for the while.
God told me it better, his message rang true, when all came to nothing when I had lost you.
God told me he loved me and in all that I meet, I would find beneath liars someone once sweet...

lol wow...that came out despressing I dunno where that came from but SURE

Un-needed

Its sad to see the day go by without a hint of light shine through the sky
No giant flashlight beamed from heaven has split the grey cotton ball blanket
And in my solemn lonesome retreat from society I find myself standing next to the window
Hoping this thing we called Spring would finally come on the morrow
As I wait so utterly bothered I wrench out the thought that I am but un-needed
Unwanted by those who I was needed by and so maybe thats why the sun has not shown
Maybe, quite so, could it be that they know? Have they found out my performance was something short of true?

Oh who knows for the fact that innocent rabbits hop in the shadows feeding gayly on my front lawn
*sigh* Keep in strong for misfortunes could not bring foul weather, suck it up man it'll all be ok
You're right, you're right, I tell myself in my sorrow and so to the audience I turn and I shout
Pure silence rolls out of my mouth from the depths and the crevices of my heart
Silence....
Can you hear my heart cry? The silence of nothingness found inside of my eye?
This emptyness tumbling like weeds in the desert fumbling along with the company of none...

And though you tell me that you are the lonesome, the hurt, the fragile, the unfriended.
I swear to the that you are the one who's happier than I
Do you intend to mock me with those unwarrented lies? Your popularity tells me you joke to my will,
and crush it under your fingers like sand and let it split slowly to the ground as ashes of a man burned
Unneeded, unwanted, and daunted by the fact, that you no longer need I to give you ovation
A crutch tucked under your heart, lies of unhappiness, lies of unfriended friends you posses...

I think I see a flicker of light shining through that dusty ragged sky and as a rain drop starts falling,
My eyes swell with tears, not of joy but of the regret of the used
Be still my throbbing heart, no longer will you be manipulated to anothers liking...forever I'll keep you as mine

I step outside the embrace the cold shower, with arms stretched for new beginnings you could swear
they were tears but were they raindrops thundering down my puzzled face...for is it happiness or sorrow that consumes me?

Epiphany

Jargon

I went golfing today, and I just realized that my dad is horrible now ^___^, now I might have a chance at beating him on the course hahaha

Schools gay, so boring, when you sit in class wondering if you should just get up and leave or sleep through the lesson I think that is the time when you know schools not worth it

oh...i need money lol

I've grown a new hatred for sushi...(raw fish and all)

"Dead"

(P.S. haha Christie if you are wondering who this ones about just call me and I'll be happy to let you know...no worries it's not you so don't like cry or something...? lol)

Your poison seeps into my bones turning my soul into ashes of miserable tears,

The moisture of life sucked high and dry from the existence I once called myself.

And what is left of me when a million arrows pierce through my heart,

Each tip equipped with gut wrenching lies that are so sharp they fooled even me.

Can death not come to me any sooner as my eyes shrivel and burn from your smiles of discontent,

Or must I linger in your disgust as you petrify the weak and trusting with your web of hate for others?

If God could answer my prayers I’d tell him this “please save yourself before she poisons you,

For even the heavens are not ready for such blasphemy as this, this which spews from the caverns of her mal natured heart…or is it even a heart any more?

Is she not dead now? The once sweet girl turned arch angel in one swift treatment of silence….

A silence so rarely experienced that it kills you to even hear of it’s presence.

Not you are but dead to me. At the bottom of the sea….